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Picnic Ponderings

Today was our Family and Friends Picnic.  When I say "our" I mean Joni and Friends Greater Philadelphia.  It's a bit like a family reunion.  Everyone who is a part of the Joni and Friends family is welcome to attend.  Those who come include families who attend one of our three weeks of Family Retreat, volunteers who just want to serve and make the day stress free for those who come, Short Term Missionaries who serve one of the weeks at camp and want to reconnect with those who made such an impact in their lives.  Others who come are those who have been part of a support group, or church ministries, families who come to the Easter Egg Hunt or a men's baseball game, or even those who don't know anything about us, but heard there was an opportunity to connect with other families who live a similar life journey.  

What struck me most at this gathering was the distance people traveled.   Our picnic was in Lansdale; which is a relatively central location for most of our "locals." But so many more than the locals (a geographic radius of about 30 miles) joined the fun.  

Three families came from the Pocono area, a 50-60 mile trip each way.  A number of others traveled about 80 miles each way to come from the Lancaster, PA area, northern and southern New Jersey.  That is significant, especially when you recall they are traveling on a HOT day, with at least one person in the car who has special needs or a disability.  

But - the award for the longest travel goes to the family who drove up from Virginia, and went home again the same day.  Their drive was about 4 hours one way.  (I'd like to claim that the family there from the state of Washington came the greatest distance; and while they did they didn't come specifically for the picnic. They were in north Jersey with family and came over for the day).

But back to the Virginia family . . . .Wow, they drove through the DC metro area to attend a picnic for a few hours.  While I am humbled and honored, I find myself asking the question, "Why?"  

Without being asked that question directly they talked repeatedly about how they missed us - the larger Joni and Friends family. Some say Joni and Friends really is more like Joni and Family!  They just needed a "booster shot!"  

For me, I think the answer goes deeper . . .  it is just THAT HARD sometimes to live life with disability.  To be able to have real, honest conversations, support, friendship and connection with those who "get it," distance is no barrier.

What makes me sad about that is this . . . we at Joni and Friends want to equip churches, the body of Christ, to be that source of connection, friendship and support right where people live.  While we've seen an increase in recent years in the number of churches who are creatively ministering

with (not just to!) people affected by disability it's not yet enough.  

Disability is so pervasive and varies so much from person to person it is sometimes hard for churches to know where to begin; or how to maintain a ministry for the full life spectrum of families affected by disability.

So while we continue to pursue our mission of equipping churches to be the front line of ministry, here's to valuing, honoring and embracing families affected by disability through picnics, Easter egg hunts, baseball games, support groups, pampering days and so much more!

A favorite picnic activity - exploding watermelons!

52 Weeks

This was written on a board in the first room I walked into
this week at Spruce Lake!

Spruce Lake . . . sitting here in my cozy little nook pondering memories as I think back to some of the other weeks of Family Retreat I’ve been blessed to be part of here.

This week is my 52^nd week of Family Retreat, that means as this week ends I will have spent one full year of my life at Family Retreat.  AMAZING!!!!  (And I am not the one with the longest history; Sib has me beat by several more weeks). 

Jerry though, is quick to remind me that if I add in my camping experiences with Oaks of Hebron (not to mention my own weeks as a child camper) the number far exceeds one year.   Ah, those weeks at Westminster Woods camp in Guerneville CA.  Talk about bringing a smile to my face!  But that will be the topic of another post, another day.

So back to those Spruce Lake memories . . . .

• ·      Talking with a lady who brought her service dog with her.  Toward the end of the week she said, “you know what the difference is here?  Here people talk to me, not my dog.  It’s not like that at home.”
•     Interacting with “Gina” who said Friday after Family Retreat she planned to drive her van off a mountain road, she just couldn’t live with disability anymore.  Thankfully she did NOT do that.  I saw her a couple years ago, and was thrilled to see her doing well.
•      Meeting people who got out of their vans as strangers on Monday afternoon, and by Friday they left as friends.
•         Hearing someone say, after being asked if they wanted to have a loud or soft greeting when they arrived, “usually people cheer (silently) when we leave – no one has ever cheered for us when we arrive!”
•      Being blessed to hear those who love to sing, even if the world says they don’t have talent, praising God sincerely at the top of their voice.
•       Watching a young person begin the week serving with great shyness and questioning if they could do this, and seeing them blossom and grow!
•       Laughing at the thought of the men who decided to dye Jerry’s and Mike’s hair blonde.  Didn’t exactly turn out like anyone expected!  Or the time they shaved their heads . . 
•      Hearing a young boy say how much he hated his sister with a disability, but by week’s end saying he loved his sister because she is the reason his family came to camp and he learned about Jesus!
•      Listening and watching as “camp allergies” overtake even the biggest toughest guys when they care for a young one with special needs.
•      Seeing couples walk hand in hand and asking how long has it been since they have had time alone without the kids?   Most can’t recall, though today one said, “well when my husband went to get gas last week I went with him!”
•      Seeing churches begin to minister to families affected by disability because of experiences the pastor, and church members had at Family Retreat.
•      Learning new lessons in what it REALLY means to trust in the Sovereignty of God when a camper goes missing for a time.
•      Having my heart break again and again when families come in saying this is their last hope before divorce.  Disability in the family is just that hard!
•      Having renewed thankfulness for my husband and marriage, which is also hard at times, but with God’s help we are living, loving and serving together!
•      Hearing the young man with autism who has run by me for several years stop and say hello to me by name. 
•      Being invited in to the photo taken by the young woman with Down Syndrome who clearly has her mind made up as to who she wants in which shots!
•     Finding out that you are NOT the only one  in your situation and building relationships that last long past one week, or even a year.

Well, if you don’t believe me, or think I am exaggerating there is one sure way you can find out . . . join me in 2016 for my 53^rd, 54^th and 55^th weeks of Family Retreat!

Gardening Memories and Current Weeds!

I think my Dad was in his 40's when his inner gardener broke out.  He had grown up in the city and moved out to "the country" a few years after he married Mom.  Our house had about 1/2 acre of yard; and was next door to my Grandparents home, and they also had about 1/2 an acre.  I wish I knew what caused Dad to rototill a patch of the yard and plant a small garden.  While I don't know the original cause, I know it didn't take him long to realize "Jersey 'maters are the best!"  That was a mantra he sang over and over again, especially to our friends from church who lived across the river in "Pennsyltucky" as he called it.

Each year Dad would add a few more feet onto the area he tilled and planted unit it consumed about the back third of the properties (even going a little into Grandmom's part I think!).  He grew tomatoes, beans, corn, squash, horseradish, carrots, peppers  and I don't recall what else.  He grew way more than our family could consume, and it brought him great pleasure to grow the produce to share with others.

He was so dedicated to his garden that Mom and I used to laugh that after work dad got out of the car and went out and checked the garden before he even came in to greet us!

While Dad's domain was the vegetable garden, Mom's were the flower garden.  She had a nice patch at the back of the house, and another along the side that always looked beautiful.

I don't recall Dad ever having me help him weed his garden, and perhaps I helped Mom a little bit with tidying the garden from time to time.  But I never really got the "gardening bug" from either of them.  I recall a great aunt sharing with me once that she was so happy that the latent heritage of gardening had resurfaced in Dad.  I sort of hoped that once I hit my 40's it would pop out in me too.  But since those days have come and gone . .  . I am GRATEFUL for the friends who mulch, plant my gardens and weed.  I am also thankful for those, who like Dad, grow more than they need and share with us.

Ok. but enough nostalgia.  When we got home from camp a few weeks ago I noticed that a great number of weeds had made themselves quite at home along our sidewalk, driveway and garden edges.  It was really quite embarrassing looking - one on the corner of the sidewalk was about 2 feet tall and growing!  So I contacted our friend Kait and she came by yesterday.  After about 3 solid hours of work our property looked as nice as others in our neighborhood.  I am so grateful for her help.  I think she did the most thorough job of weeding I had even seen.

So this morning I started thinking about weeds and correlating that to sin in my life.

Thursday morning was a particularly great morning for weeding.  We had a significant rain the night before, so the ground was still moist, making it "easier" to get the weeds out at the roots, but still not without Kait investing a significant amount of energy.

The bigger the weed, the deeper the roots. And when the big ones came out they left a visible hole.   Next we'll spray some "weed killer" to prevent any little leftover pieces from reappearing.

There is a "weed" in my personal life that I want out of here.  I'd like to think it c
an just be yanked out and done away with, but honestly I've let it grow so long, it's pretty well rooted.  That means it is likely going to take an investment of energy to leave the comfort of the weed and uproot it.  The ground around this weed in my heart needs to be softened, perhaps through some stormy circumstances, and ultimately by letting go of the control.

When the final pieces of this ingrained weed are gone there will be a hole left in my life - this weed has become a comfortable, though unsavory friend over the years.  That means I'll need to fill that hole with obedience, and fruits of the spirit that I want to grow and produce in such abundance that I can share with others.

Maybe, just maybe  Dad's legacy of gardening will resurface after all!

The Shadowlands

My thanks to CS Lewis, for the title, though I honestly think in his current state he is not too concerned.  He is after all, out of the shadowlands.

Years ago I received a card with a quote that I thought was attributed to Lewis, but now that I try to find it, I can't.  So from memory I believe the statement was:  "Between reality and the dream lies the shadow."

I know I live in the reality side of that statement, at least on most days.  Generally my reality is a pretty sweet place to be.  I have a wise, compassionate and fun husband, a job/ministry that allows me to make an impact on the lives of others, family who I love (and they love me!), and a God who is ALWAYS with me.  

Why then do I feel so restless??  No matter how great life is here, there is always a yearning for more that will never be met until I meet Jesus face to face in eternity.  It is not necessarily a bad thing to live in the shadowlands between this life and Heaven.  That motivates me to love and serve God and those He puts in my path.  

Yet I still stumble too often into the "what could be" realm, of dreams that may never come true, of goals that I would like to see achieved, just plain old wishing and hoping, even envying something that is not God's plan for me at least right now, or moving forward anticipating fear of something that "may be."  Spending too much time in the future (the dreams) or the dancing in the shadows around the future I find myself missing the beauty and preciousness of each moment in my reality.  When I find myself in those shadowlands it's time to join the prayer from Asaph from Psalm 73; when he found the reality around him to be unfair.  (Parenthetical thoughts and emphasis added by me!)

     Yet I (Asaph/Joan) am always with you (God); you hold me by       my right hand.  You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory/  Whom have I in heaven but you?  And earth has nothing I desire besides you.  My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.  Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.  But as for me, it is good to be near God.  I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.

Good to be near God - that's the shadowland where I want to be found; resting beneath the shadow of His mighty wings!  (Psalm 17 and Psalm 91)  

Leap Second

Today, June 30, 2015 a second is being added to the Coordinated Universal Time.  So for those of us who often lament that we wish we had a little more time in our day - after today we can breathe easier thank to this added second!

Don't believe me?  Check it out here.

What fascinates me most about this is a news story I heard earlier this year.  We all think a second is such an insignificant amount of time, yet if the leap second were added all at one time it has the potential to seriously disrupt ecommerce and email communications.  I heard that thousands of transactions and messages could be lost.  Instead the leap second is added in nano seconds throughout the day to avoid this disruption.

Fascinating!

Some of the families we are serving this week at Family Retreat had their lives change in a second when a drunk driver took to the road, or a medical decision was made in error, a heart skipped a beat, or someone diverted their eyes from a child for just a second and the "unthinkable" happened.

So here's what I am pondering . . .  if a seemingly insignificant second has the potential to disrupt life in all these ways that are considered negative, what positive difference can a second make?  Who can I smile at, say hello to, or share a blessing with in one second that will impact their day?  Who can I reach out a hand to?  Will waiting a second more to let some one pass in front of me really be a problem?

Here's to using that extra second we "gain" to bring light, hope, blessing and joy!

Don't Cheat Me Out of a Blessing!

Here I sit with a full belly, and an eve fuller spirit.  Yes, I expended a decent amount of emotional, spiritual, mental and physical energy this week.  As we’ve sometimes talked about in orientation, we want to finish a week of Family Retreat knowing that we’ve left it all on the field!  I can say with certainty that the 130 volunteers (Short Term Missionaries) did just that.

One of the things I LOVE about Family Retreat, is that while it is not really a contest of any sorts, the prevailing attitude is – no, please let me do that!  People are anxious to serve; and people of all ages (I think our volunteers ranged from 9-80!).  As one of our friends and volunteers is often heard to say, “Don’t cheat me out of a blessing!”  There were certainly many, many acts people did this week that may never be known by another or celebrated here on earth, but God knows and is preparing a crown of blessing for eternity!

The young men who pulled a wagon of a preteen young man with autism and listened to the same melodic beep bops coming from his toys day in and day out.  I missed hearing how many miles they walked this week but it was close to 50 I am certain!  Then there was the celebration of joy to learn that this young man could match melodies on the piano and do some rhythmic beats!

There was an adult man who walked hand in hand with another preteen young man all around camp and in and out of various activities.  It wasn’t like he was leading him by the hand – it was companionable friendship.  These two enjoyed being together.

The two moms, who haven’t had a baby in the family for many, many years yet upon meeting their family which included twin 1 year olds, showed so much love and care for those babies that their Momma, for the first time in a year was able to relinquish care, and allowed herself to be cared for this week!

The single Dad, whose wife checked out (usually it’s the other way) who came with 5 children.  One who has a disability about age 11; and the others 4 sweeties ages 2-8 or so.  What precious, precious bundles of life.  Those STMs poured their lives into both the kids and dad this week.  The family goes home knowing they are not alone!

I got to stand in and fill some new roles on a temporary basis this week.  I spent some hours covering the book table, some time helping prepare for the talent show and hours listening to the stories of some of the Mom’s who came, and even some of the STMs.  It is really a very precious gift when someone entrusts you with their story.  There was one point at which I thought I might be dusting off my old youth ministry degree and teaching Jr High, but thankfully someone else was able to fill that sudden change of need.

I could go on and on, but it’s time to rest – that’s what this weekend between weeks is for.  But for now- THANK YOU STMs and Program staff for a job well done.  THANK YOU FAMILIIES for entrusting your precious ones to people you just met.  And THANK YOU GOD for the privilege of serving you and for uniting us together to know that WITH GOD nothing is impossible!